Change was the only thing which was constant in my life this year as usual.
The most important part was that I learned something new about myself and about My Self-Respect. I Learned about who actually I am, who Nidhi is. Lost a lot but gained something more then that. I tried to explore myself and the process is still on. I never thought that that i could be so confident, I never thought even I can enjoy life. Today Nidhi has changed but for the first time for herself and not for others. It is the first time I learned to respect myself and do what I feel to do. I learned that it is good to be selfish sometimes.
When I saw myself in the mirror - I said - "Yar Mai inti buri bhi nahi dikhti" :) I think pampering yourself is one of the best activity you can do..trust me you would love it.
I gained my self confidence.. I can motivate myself now. In short I am not dependent on any1 to make me happy and top of it the expectation levels have gone down drastically..I am just enjoying and taking my life as it comes my way.
I just wanna be happpy - I have cried a lot for people who did not even care for who I am and what position they hold in my life but today I only have 1 thing to say to them - "GTH - Go To Hell".. If you dont care for me, I would be the last person on earth to even want to look at them..
But somewhere deep down my heart I think what went wrong!!! was there something i could have done to save the situation on letting go someone like that...I don't get any answers but at the end of the day whatever happens it happens for goood..
Sometimes I feel very baadd or even worst but then this is what life is all about...if everything happens as you wish life would really be very very boring. So enjoy your life as you want to and yes we dont have to think what others thinks about us...come on we have better things to do i life..
The worst part is that we try to change ourselves or think about the thoughts of those people who actually don't mean anything in our life...and people who are actually important or should be important they come in the last on our priority list..
I know it is easy said however think..this is actually the reality..
So i would continue maybe some other day Gooood Night!!!!!!!!!! Take Care!!!!!
