On the Year End!!!

Change was the only thing which was constant in my life this year as usual. 

The most important part was that I learned something new about myself and about My Self-Respect. I Learned about who actually I am, who Nidhi is. Lost a lot but gained something more then that. I tried to explore myself and the process is still on. I never thought that that i could be so confident, I never thought even I can enjoy life. Today Nidhi has changed but for the first time for herself and not for others. It is the first time I learned to respect myself and do what I feel to do. I learned that it is good to be selfish sometimes.

When I saw myself in the mirror - I said - "Yar Mai inti buri bhi nahi dikhti" :) I think pampering yourself is one of the best activity you can do..trust me you would love it.

I gained my self confidence.. I can motivate myself now. In short I am not dependent on any1 to make me happy and top of it the expectation levels have gone down drastically..I am just enjoying and taking my life as it comes my way.

I just wanna be happpy - I have cried a lot for people who did not even care for who I am and what position they hold in my life but today I only have 1 thing to say to them - "GTH - Go To Hell".. If you dont care for me, I would be the last person on earth to even want to look at them..

But somewhere deep down my heart I think what went wrong!!! was there something i could have done to save the situation on letting go someone like that...I don't get any answers but at the end of the day whatever happens it happens for goood..

Sometimes I feel very baadd or even worst but then this is what life is all about...if everything happens as you wish life would really be very very boring. So enjoy your life as you want to and yes we dont have to think what others thinks about us...come on we have better things to do i life..

The worst part is that we try to change ourselves or think about the thoughts of those people who actually don't mean anything in our life...and people who are actually important or should be important they come in the last on our priority list..

I know it is easy said however think..this is actually the reality..

So i would continue maybe some other day Gooood Night!!!!!!!!!! Take Care!!!!!

Relationship

There is no relationship without a commitment and there cant be a commitment without a relationship.

 

A relationship hard to make easy to break, Hard to Hold On and Easy to Move On.

It is very easy for us to get in a relationship - without thinking about the repcrussions or the future of the relationship. We tend to like someone, love someone or care for someone - but that doesnt mean that we can start the relationship be it love, friendhip or anything.

 

The reason behind this is a commitment which is required from both sides to maintain the relationship. Commitment doesnt mean a promise to be together - it also means giving time to each other, not telling a lie, giving an ear to each other, not cheating and so many things.

 

We tend to love and care for someone - but we never know when it becomes a possesiveness, also we might take the other person for granted - that is when the problem starts, distance increases and then even when we want to be with each other our EGO's stop is for being together.

 

Thats hard but Thats Life. If Life would have been easy what was the fight am i right :D :)...

 

Sometimes, u want to be in a relationship, but cannot commit anything as you forsee no future of the relationship. It might be due to any reasons - may be society or may be you just cannnot commit as you know you can not hold on

 

In all such situations it is always better to pull yourself and do not get into all such things. It is better to get hurt or hurt someone else now, rather then saying yes today and then suffering yrself or the other person for the whole life.

 

Always think 100 times before you get into a relationship - A commitment today may make you suffer for the whole life but a Indiffernce today would make your life much better maybe not today but in the near future

 

Be Emotional but with Practicality

Be Practical but with Emotions

 

Author: Nidhi Agarwal

Date: 14-04-2011

Something about life

Feeling A Bit Lonely A Bit Sad
Dont Know The Problem With This Lad
She Is Seeming A Bit Low
Not Able To Manage The Life Flow

Stagnent As A Lake, Stuck Like Mud
Where Has She Lost Her Luck
Gloomy And Sad She Sits In A Chamber
Hiding Her Face She Cries In The Corner

Surrounded With The Memories
She Tries To Catch Hold Of Them
What She Gets Is Just Air
Hands Are Empty And Bare

She Is Hurt - Hurt She Is
No One Checks The Reasons For This
Making Everyone Smile She Hides Her Tears
That Is Where Her Strength Exists

What To Say And What To Not
Sometimes Life Is A Rot
Going With It Is Not As Easy As Said
But Easy Is Not What Life Is All About

Life - Part 1

Today when I reached home..things were seeming very different. I did not wanted to have my food today. I just wanted to go and sleep and think about all what happened today...

After an hour - it was at last time to go to bed...I always wait for that moment not because I am tired - but because that is the only time I have for MEE, I can think about me - Aanchal.

So, as soon as I went to bed - i could feel a shiver in my body - It was not due to cold weather - it was because of what happened today
It was my first Exam - it didn't go right..Ahh as always I was sad - and I dont know what made me call someone who i knew from a couple of months..cant say a friend ofcourse.

I was wearing my favourite green suit

I called him after my exam was over- he being a home since it was a saturday came over to meet me - It was strange but it was OK.
Me, My friend Nupur and Him - we all went to Mc-donalds to have something. I dont know but i was not very comfertable with them. I could see them talking with there eyes - then food came and we were all eating. After we finished - i was resing my hand on the table. I suddenly felt him glaring at me. I felt as if he wanted to hold my hand..

I felt more uncomfertable - suddenly Nupur said she has to leave as it is getting for her to reach home - ofcourse I was getting late too.
So, we left nupur at the bus stop and I too prepared to leave - though i dont wanted to. Suddenly he said would you mind staying for a while - i dont know what made me said YES..

We were just waking on the side lane and then chose a corner to sit together.
He was looking at me and suddenly said "Aanchal I think I like you" He held my hand tightly and then kept his hand on my shoulder.

It was the first time i felt something different - something out of the world -  that first touch from someone.

He saw my face - i was so scared by his move. He suddanly realised maybe he is too fast. He asked me do u want me to remove my hand off your shoulders - and i nodded "Yes".

I got a call from my parents - i had to run home as it was late...my house was just walking distance from where we were - I started for my home and waved him goodbye..as i saw behind he was standing there waving to me till i was out of sight.

So, as i was thinking about all this - i was shivering, i was scared, and I suddenly got a SMS from him - "Dont be scared honey", I am not a monster who would eat you up"

I started smiling but got high fever. I was really scared of what happend...